I've been sitting home trying to keep up with all the work I have before me. I feel a lot more responsible for my learning now than ever since college has shut down but the classes continue. It makes me very worried in fact. Sometimes I wake up in the night out of pure fear I've forgotten something and that mistake will cost me the class. I don't like responsiblity all that much, you have a lot to look up to and if you fail, you could be seen as an incompetent buffoon that cannot handle any task even if you simply forgot or made a small mistake. I live in a world of never ending paranoidness and anxitey. I just wish I could sit down and not have to worry about anything and let it all be calm.